“Life is all in your head”

This week’s art features a girl with her head open and poppies floating in or out. I drew this just before I visited my doctor, around beginning of 2019. I feel like I have been visiting my doctor(s) a lot. I have such a weak immune system so I easily get sick, and when I do get sick, it usually gets complicated because it turns into the worse kind of sick. But this evening, I visited because there was something wrong with my left ear. For a couple of days, I was experiencing something very weird with my ear. It feels as if it was being pulled and then it goes numb. Then, it began making popping noises, or actually, static-y noises that disturbed me because it was so abrupt and loud.

I mentioned these symptoms to my doctor and said something along the lines of, “it feels like it’s all in my head. But it’s real. I can’t explain it.” My doctor, I think he was interested in giving me an existential crisis on top of my weird ear experience, said, “Life is all in your head.”

I liked what he said so much that I decided to title this piece with the phrase. I thought it was fitting, you see. Among the meanings poppies symbolize include: a lively imagination, death, peace, messages delivered in dreams, and restful sleep or recovery.

When I was drawing “Life is all in your head,” I was in a mindset of feeling unbound. I was irritated with the fact that I get so easily sick and how much I would like good thoughts to come in and kick bad thoughts out.

Anyway, it turned out I had a Eustachian Tube Dysfunction, which I predicted I did have (thanks to WebMD). After frightening myself about hearing loss due to some tests done, I cried, was given medicine and learned a thing or two about congestion. The cause of the ETD was a bronchitis I had about a month before, it turns out I was still congested from it. It did not help that my allergies were kicking up around this time.

While I am writing this, I am sending pleas to the universe to help my well-being. I would like to be healthy overall, it would be nice to have a break. Other than that, I guess I just have to remember that life is all in my head and let go.

What are some ways you cope when you’re feeling unwell?

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